only child

learning how to live with other people is real hard! i'm not great at it!

wowowowowowowowowowowowooooo

i'm in hobbs rn

plain bagel w avocado 

soy latte

the aggressive vegan combo, one might call it

jeez i love avocados i love em so much

i should be calling my parents and grandmother more often

i could make an effort to have a good relationship with them

it would probably make me a happier person!

thought i was in the mood for more substantial reflection

but it seems like that is not the case 

if the pile of dishes in our kitchen isn't washed i'm gonna START A FIGHT w my roommate

(stay tuned)

hey hows it going

it took me several attempts to log into this blog
but i tried until i succeeded
let it be a lesson to us all

this would be a more accurate reflection of my life if i wrote every day
and not just when i was in a horrible mood

i've had a bad day
even though i was relatively productive
perhaps happiness is contingent on more than just productivity

i went to target, ran 3.1 miles, studied for the LSAT, read some of my book

the portrayal of rita skeeter in the goblet of fire movie was not great
they didn't really capture her essence

i read a diary entry of the person whose apartment i'm subletting
that's probably morally wrong
even if it didn't "hurt" anyone
could i will a world in which people read each others diary entries on a whim
would likely destroy journaling as an institution
(hey heads up i don't understand Kant)

i think the conclusion i've come to this summer is a lot of friends of mine aren't good friends
or, more accurately, not the kind of friends i need
and generally benefit from having
not sure what to do with that information

read somewhere the solution to depression is to just keep on showing up
despite what you're feeling in the moment
going through the motions of having a full and interesting life
until you actually feel like you have a full and interesting life

season 3 of bojack horseman is coming out soon
something to LOOK FORWARD TO

ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

it's summer time baby! catchin rays, sayin hey
i currently have MY OWN APARTMENT
(that i am subletting and sharing with Vin lol)
i am also working at the library
shelvin books, doing other various repetitive tasks

seems weird that we criticize people for wanting pity or attention
like those motivations arent divorced from genuine pain
but W H O  K N O W Z

anyways, i'm feelin kind of depressed
that's a funny thing to put in your blog
that you're kind of depressed

i'm almost done w college
i'm not sure if i have anything to show for it
feel like my life is wasting away, and i want to make the most of it

i made myself avocado toast
it was fucking delish
a true culinary experience

is it cool and fun and quirky that all theze blog entries end with some mundane detail about my life
to undercut the like, emotional stuff
it's a burden being 2 smart and cool to earnestly talk about my emotional experience as a person
a burden i bear with tremendous grace and poise