ymmv

i've spent most of today alone
it's felt fairly bad
but i didn't feel like exerting the effort to not be alone

(Are These Problems Other People Have? Probably Not)

last night............... oH BOY

so i brought a boy back to my dorm room
we were making out and he said
"have you been working out?"
and i very demurely and elegantly said
"yeah, a little"

then we started having sex
i got up to get a condom out of my drawer and was like
"i don't know if this is a good condom brand or not"
and he said something like "it probably is" dismissively

while we were having sex my roommate knocked on the door and was like
"I NEED MY MEDICINE FOR MY HYPOGLYCEMIA"
and i had to put on clothes to let her in
while he hid, naked, under the covers of my bed

all my friends were standing outside

everyone was mad
 he's a senior
and he has a single
and i was like "he said he doesn't have like, sheets for his bed"
(that was the reason he asked if we could use my room)
and sophie was like "you could've had sex on the floor"
1/2 joke
1/2 passive aggressive unwillingness to acknowledge my actions had sort of justifiable reasons behind them

my roommate and i haven't spoken since
perhaps we will never speak again
she will rise at dusk, come home as late as possible
the silence between us will become familiar and comfortable

i've felt angry at all of them all day
but now i sort of just............ don't care or something

this seems like a particularly bad period of my life
but maybe it's necessary for future personal growth